Thursday, May 10, 2012
An over flowing HEART!!
As tomorrow (May 11th) draws closer, my heart overflowing with love, support, luck, and all the other fun words I could use. Tomorrow will be the 6th year since my FIRST brain surgery... Holy cow!! I can't believe I have made it this far. I remember the day before my surgery my parents came and we went down to Salt Lake of the U of U to have my "pre-op" appointment... the only thing I remember is they insisted I take a pregnancy test?!?! ARE YOU SERIOUS?? I did it and told them that if they bothered to read my file that was in the nurses had she would know that it was impossible for it to happen, but whatever makes her feel better. Anyway, with it being Mother's Day and my dad's birthday all on the same day J and I decided that we wanted to take my parents out to eat. (J's parents weren't with us until late that night) As we were eating, you could see that my mom was getting upset and we asked her if she was ok? She grabbed my hand and said " promise me you'll hang on so your sisters and uncle can come see you." I rolled my eyes. I knew this would come up, naturally, but neither Jared and I felt that was the time or the place to discuss it. So we finished our dinner and headed back to the bed and breakfast where we were meeting J's family. Every one was there visiting me and each other, the next thing I know is I am crying... it has hit me that this could be the last time I have both my families together, if I don't tell them I love them will they know? I then remember that in my hospital bag I had pictures of my nieces... I was SO afraid of forgetting who they were. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep that night, had to be a the hospital by 6 or 630 (you know what a morning person I am) so they got me ready and came in and got my IV started and then they gave me some time with my family... I asked J to give me a blessing. We invited my parents to stay and they did... WOW what an amazing experience!! After the blessing my dad had tears running down his cheeks, made me feel so happy to know that the spirit was there not only for me and J but for my family who are not members... surgery came and went and I insisted that I WALK to the bathroom alone!! I did it!! an that is why I was home in 2 days!! I sit and think back at the way things could have happened, and the way they did and I get tears in my eyes thinking of all the great blessings that I have. I am grateful for my family and my friends and all the things I have learned from having to go through this. (J has some pretty funny stories about me being on the pain meds... I'm sure he'd LOVE to share them with you if you ask) " I stand all amazed at the love Jesus offers me"... Love you all Danielle