New Feelings...

When someone you love passes away, you feel so many emotions- sad, hurt, scared, confused, peace, comfort, and the list could go on. Saturday morning after Maliya passed, I met with President Gatherum (he was our Bishop then got put in the Stake Presidency) at his office and he visited about what happened the day before and what I was feeling. He shared Alma 40:11-12 that helped a lot and another thing that he shared is " how special these babies are that have come to our family, and have been called back home so soon, and how special our family is to be given these perfect babies that don't have to endure the world we live in. And Danielle, how special are you and Jared that you can't even get you babies to get here..." I froze. Not one time in our infertility problems have I ever thought I was "special." I have always felt that I wasn't as good as the women that are having them. I hope this makes sense, I am still trying to wrap my head around this all, it's going to take time. Thanks for reading and all your love and support through these tough times. Love you all ~D