New Feelings...

When someone you love passes away, you feel so many emotions- sad, hurt, scared, confused, peace, comfort, and the list could go on. Saturday morning after Maliya passed, I met with President Gatherum (he was our Bishop then got put in the Stake Presidency) at his office and he visited about what happened the day before and what I was feeling. He shared Alma 40:11-12 that helped a lot and another thing that he shared is " how special these babies are that have come to our family, and have been called back home so soon, and how special our family is to be given these perfect babies that don't have to endure the world we live in. And Danielle, how special are you and Jared that you can't even get you babies to get here..." I froze. Not one time in our infertility problems have I ever thought I was "special." I have always felt that I wasn't as good as the women that are having them. I hope this makes sense, I am still trying to wrap my head around this all, it's going to take time. Thanks for reading and all your love and support through these tough times. Love you all ~D

Maliya Jade

On the morning of Oct. 25, 2013, our beautiful little angel, Maliya Jade, left this earth to return into the loving arms of her Heavenly Father. Maliya was born on May 28, 2013, to Tanner Logan and Kelsea Blair Gunnell of Smithfield, Utah. We were so blessed to have been in her sweet presence for five short months. While her time here seemed short, she deeply touched everyone she came in contact with. One of those people was her big brother, Peyton Carter. He loved his baby sister more than anything. She loved to smile, laugh and bring happiness to those around her. When Maliya left this life, she received a loving welcome from her uncle Jason, cousin Andrew, and great-grandfathers Cecil Hugie and Willis Roper. She is survived by her loving parents and brother; grandparents Garry and Cindy Roper, and Val and Cindy Gunnell; great-grandparents Donna Roper, Lois Hugie, Ray and Carolyn Gilbert, Burke and Vernetta Gunnell, and many wonderful aunts, uncles, cousins and friends who loved her dearly. Graveside services for Maliya will be held at noon on Wednesday, Oct. 30, in the Smithfield City Cemetery. Friends may call from 6 to 8 p.m. Tuesday at Nelson Funeral Home, 85 S. Main and from 10:30 to 11:30 a.m. Wednesday. Donations can be made in Maliya's name for the Gunnell family at any Wells Fargo bank. Condolences may be expressed online at www.nelsonfuneralhome.com. - See more at: http://www.legacy.com/obituaries/hjnews/obituary.aspx?n=maliya-jade-gunnell&pid=167750984&#sthash.WfD98Ik1.FRukxT5E.dpuf

There aren't even words to describe the hurt Jared and I feel, but together we will get through this. You will forever be in our hearts little angel. Auntie and Uncle love you so much!!